new me.. new pic of me.. new outlook of me.. same chara of me.. but back to oldself.. doin those stupid stuff and things... hais... y.. must back to old?? sian... stress ar!!! wat to do... hais.. old those thing can make me relax.. and better.. coldcoldcold.. very cold is good.. haha..

cannot sleep now.. idiot.. argg.. cos of de stupid thing.. haha... cant sleep lor.. bored.. and must find things do.. knn.. is a last min planned thing.. was not thinkin of it.. till last min.. hais..
below is a malay song.. very meaningful.. it name sayangku by shahrin..

Pabila kau tidada disisiku
Hatiku pun mula terasa sayu
Wajahmu selalu terbayang-bayang
Difikiranku wahai Sayang

Tetapi ini semuanya memori
Yang akan ku simpan di dalam hati
Pabila ku keseorangan nanti
Akan kuteringat sejarah kembali

Mengapakah kau meninggalkan ku
Apakah Kesalahan ku
Yang ku buat kepadamu
Sehingga begini akhirnya

[Chorus]
Sayangku
Kemana kau menghilangkan diri
Sungguh payah untukku mencarimu
Kembalilah kepadaku seperti waktu dahulu
Kemana kau menghilangkan diri
Sungguh payah untukku mencarimu
Kembalilah kepadaku seperti waktu dahulu



sian...


clown

ppl now gonna post abt my army days...took some photos of chages in me... haha.. haha... just finish 2week of army confinement.. fuckin sian and tiring.. i become darker.. and more impt is i got back my shape.. haha.. u can see de photo above.. de result after 2 week.. haha.. still 2 month plus to serve... hahaha.. gonna be fit and more fit whn out... haha

WE ARE WE ARE INFANTRY AR!! WE ARE WE ARE WISKEY COMPANY AR!!! haha... this wat we keep shouting in tekong... haha... sian thinkin of tue book in de next day got road march if i not wrong.. wahh.. sian lor.. field bag SBO all on wif rifle all on.. cb... and 2 fuck total of 5 L of water?? or 4?? forget le.. i onli know de water back is 3L.. cb.. de weight is knn de heavy... thn every day need walk up stairs to 5th story down 5th story knn.. tired.. wat is stairs now to me wat?? nth la.. haha... lol...

k la.. ppl enjoy de pic.. will be update more late.. cos going out wif my bunk mates.. go get some NS stuff...

takecare

clown..

HELLO PPL!! I AM BACK!! AFTER 2 WEEK OF NS CONFINEMENT!! HAHA.. FUCKIN SHACK! PHOTOS WILL UPLOAD TMR>> TODAY VERY TIRED>> SORRYY

a pic wif my smallest bro.. haha... going sleep soon le.. tmr 6am wake up... yawnS!! dunnno who gonna miss me my blog comfirm going dead le for 2 weeks.. haha..

meeting iikyn sis tmr.. she going down wif my family... lol.. so my whole family and her going to sent me inside.. haha.. i scare i cry sia.. haha.. lol.. no i wont. big boy lei me.. clown lei:).. haha.. k la.. going sleep le... ppl anything just msg my phone.. i will get back to u all de:D... just contact me at 83282693 i will bring this number in.. so just msg or call this number:D.. cya..

love u all readers...


clown
wif love..

hope u all enjoy de pics:)

woo!! so tired!! last 2 nite spend our sleeping wif each other.. haha... misss de days:D.. thx for being there... let shake smoke drink drunk! haha.. haha... all de above is our photos..:)my room like chalet room lor!! haha.. we on aircon till very cold!! wif fan.. haha.. lol.. so fun... den joke drink laugh.. nonsense out of each other.. so funny... we like at chalet... but is not.. is inside my room.. haha.. lol:)

k let de pic tell de story how fun.. how close we are:D.. we like gay lor... lolS!! ahha.. takecare readers... gonna go prepare for NS stuff... going cut my hair le:)..
will be back wif pics:D


takecare..


clown:)

yo readers... above is my cute little small jayven didi.. haha.. not god son.. is didi le:D.. haha cute rite?? just born de.. haha sorry ar didi.. korkor cant see u.. ur mummy dun allow.. cos confinement ma.. haha.. korkor will come find u after 2week de NS thing.. and visit u all.. haha... to stacey sis... now got 1 more thing to take care le ar.. must realli grow up le.. mother le.. must take care ur health and baby too... k le.. will meet up u and my didi soon.. cya... and faster give him a chinese name la.. haha

haha.. wake up early in de morning today..around 10 plus.. cos recieve my dear wenyan call.. haha.. asked me pei her go vivo.. and cos i going NS le. so she wan a meet up too..And ppl say we look alot alike..realli meh?? lol..she still de same.. cute and nice.. she very nice la.. everytime after i so sad.. she will appear.. and be there supporting me:D.. thx alot gal.. thn surpose to meet her at 12 outside her skul SP. thn i late. ireach around 12.30.. sry yeah:D.. thn we went vivo.. go change her shirt size at TOPSHOP.. thn we went long john eat our lunch talk alot.. haha.. thn adelyne de stupid botak came find me too..:D thx alot.. haha.. she agree too i look nerd in spec.. OMG.. haha.. lol.. de adelyne left us to go town find her friend.. so left me and my dear good wenyan we went to meet my mei, gans and last time gina at tampines... haha... met thm.. saw thm all grow up.. getting handsome and pretty.. so happi for thm.. so long nvr see thm .. haha.. thn slack around.. thn we went bugis find my stupid gan nuer and her friends..thn my dear wenyan went to bedok find her grandma..so left we de rest..thn we go bugis.. thn over there not even 2hrs we all decide to go home.. stupid rite? haha.. cos bored ma. plus i still feel weak.. and tired.. haha.. and now.. i'm at home:D... cos bath soon eat and rest...:D.. very tired...


cya readers:D...

thx to my g.laopo.. wenyan.. thx being there cheering me up talkin to me.. nice la u... haha...:D meet up soon again ba.. haha:D... and notee: above is me and my laopo de pic:)we look alike lei:)LOl wahahha..

I NOT GOING TO HOLD ON TO IT ANYMORE!! THX U JOCELYN TANG FOR UR NICE THING U HAD SAY AR!!! SINCE U SAY IT TAT Y JUST FORGET IT!! AND DUN SOUND LIKE SOME BLODDY BITCH OVER HERE LIKE I CANT LIVE WIFOUT.. SORRY U ARE WRONG.. JUST FUCK OFF THN.. I HAD ENOUGH!!!
I NOT GOING TO HOLD ON TO DE PAST ANYMORE!! I GOING CARRY ON MOVING!! I SWEAR I FUCKING HELL WILL NOT GIVE U AND DEVIL A GOOD TIME!! MIND MY WORDS!! NBCB! JOCELYN TANG U ARE FUCKIN HELL DE FIRST PERSON DARE TO SAY ALL THIS TO ME.. FUCKIN HELL WHN I DE ONE TREATING U LIKE A PRINCESS.. FUCK!! HOW STUPID I AM!! SAY NO MORE LA HOR!! JUST FUCK OFF FROM ME!! BYE!!


READERS I JUST GONNA MIA FOR AWHILE TO SORT OUT THING AND SETTLE THINGS.. PPL TAKE CARE.. CYA..GOING TO SETTLE STUFF GATHER STUFF WILL BE BUSY.. SO YA... TAKE CARE:)


LET FUCKIN movE ON WIFOUT U THIS FUCKIN JOCELYN AROUND!!! WOOOHAA!!!

I JUST GOING TO POST THIS FUCKIN BIG ENOUGH TO LET U FUCKING SEE THIS.. DEVIL I KNOW U SEEING THIS.. AND IF U ARE SEEING THIS.. SEE THIS.. U ARE JSUT A FUCKIN 3RD PARTY WHO DE ONE APPEAR BETWEEN ME AND JOCELYN!! I LET IT GO I NOT FIGHT.. I AM GOOD ENOUGH.. AND PLS GET DE FUCKIN HELL OUT RITE NOW.. WAT IS R/S HIDE BEHIDE EACH OTHER COM AND HANDPHONE SAY I LOVE U. STEAD WIF EACH OTHER WHN NOT EVEN SEE EACH OTHER BEFORE.. NVR EVEN GO THROUGH ANYTHING WIF EACH OTHER?? THIS IS CALL R/S??!! AND FUCKIN HELL U.. THIS MY BLOG. I HaPPI WAT I WAN POST.. U NOT HAPPI U BE A MAN FACE TO FACE TALK TO ME.. U WAN TALK REASON I TALK WIF U. I HAD ENOUGH.. I NOT GOING TO LET ANYONE PUSHING ME AROUND LIKE a DOG!!!.. FACE DE FACT U FUCKIN GUY.. U ALL JUST A STEAD IN INTERNET.. AND U ARE MAKIN A BIG THING OUT OF ME AND JOCELYN.. IF U ARE A GUY WHO CAN SHOW CARE LOVE AND MAKE HER HAPPI. I NTH TO SAY.. BUT U ARE NOT lA HOR.. U ARE NOT GOING THROUGH ANYTHING WIF HER. AS FOR ME.. I 24/7 THErE FOR HER LIKE A BF.. BUT NOW WIF NOT STATUS I STILL DOING DE SAME THING.. NOW FUCKIN CB.. COS OF WAT I POST U NOT HAPPI WIF HER.. SHE NOT HAPPI WIF ME.. WE EVEN ENDED A FRIENDSHIP... U HAPPI??? THIS WAT U WAN RITE?? HEY KNN.. IF U A MAN.. FACE ME DUN FACE DE COM.. CB!! I FUCKIN HELL IN FUCKIN GOOD MOOD TO ENTERTAIN U. WAN TALK REASON LET SEE WHO WIN.. IF U SCARE U LOSE.. WE FIGHT.. I AM ON WIF U FUCKIN HELL!!!


AS FOR JOCELYN!! I FUCKIN SHIT! DISAPPOINTED IN U.. REALLI THX U!!.. THX FOR DE NICE MEMORISE U LEFT FOR ME BEFORE I GO NS! THX.. AND GET DE FUCKIN HELL RITE!! WHO IS DE REAL ONE WHO REALLI BEEN THR MAKE U HAPPI SAD CRY.. GO THROUGH EVERYTHING WIF U DE LA HOR!!! WHO DE ONE WHO REALLI GO THROUGH EVERYTHING WIF U! WHO HELP U. WHO DE ONE KEEP PROMISES AND BREAK PROMISE.. FEEL DE SAD AND HURT WIF U.. WHO DE ONE.. IS ME LA HOR!! NOT DE FUCKING DEVIL.. BUT IS FUCKIN ME!! HERE

i look so nerd ytd:( haha... all this is for jocelyn.. before i go NS.. this maybe de last and biggest surprise i give to her.. haha... left 4 more days.. i going in NS le.. not going to be so free.. althought ytd was just a short meeting have a small talk.. took some pic... but i feel very happi:D althought all this i spend to give her smile and happi maybe will not get de ans i wan... but see her so happi.. i happi too le:D.. ppl say i change change so much.. haha.. i was think whr got sia.. haha.. but now i realise.. i change.. change to de sweet and nice guy.. lol.. let me tell u all wat contain inside de box... inside de box.. is full of our picS. thn a winnie the pooh sittint on those photo thn wif a 12 stalk of roses.. haha:D sweet rite?? haha... of cos la.. think who.. clown lei!! ytd was so dramatic lor.. ask her to face other side.. while i get all de thing.. and give her de surprise.. but whn i go fetch her.. i bring nth wif me.. she realli believe i nvr buy anything.. haha.. lol. see de look on her de a bit disppointed face.. lol.. haha.. thn give her a surprise.. haha. POP! wif roses box of our photos and winnie de pooh. haha.. she say i de first guy did this for her!! YES LA!! haha. good man! hahaha... wanna be de first.!! haha.. i did it!! wooo!!! De first guy did this type of surprise for her.. first guy give her such a big roses.. haha!!! yeah.. CLOWN DE FIRST GUY LEI!! haha..and wif alot of scars on my hand.. injures on my hand.. haha.. tio scolded by her also.. got into fight lor.. haha.. but reader i alright.. haha.. if not how to carry all this stuff to give her.. haha:D.. i strong.. WARRIORS lei.. haha

BUt back to de sad part..to clear something up.. me and her.. is NOT attach tgt anymore.so got guys can go get her.. but bear in mind.. u get her.. u will get de lessson i give u.. wahahaha.. No one is to get her.. althought me and her NOT attach:D.. can try me.. i sure give u JIALAT ONE.. haha.. she still need time to give me ans.. hais.. but ytd we so called celebrate our 2nd month:D just gonna wait for her ans? or wat?? i also dunno haha.. dun wanna think so much.. just go in NS happily ba!! haha.. finally i a change to a good person!! haha lol.. i notice de changes also.. haha.. k la... readers... enjoy de photos... and read all this stuff.. haha... gtg.. needa prepare to go somewhr later.. we are de warriors!!! haha..


takecare.. wif love..


clown.. FUll of photo of nerd me:D

a piece on good new appear in my hp msg!!! yeah!!!! JAYVEN ARRIvAL !!!woO!! arrival 19 days earlier?? if not wrong..

haha.. cos he know his god father going ns.. wan see him before go ns ma.. haha.. lol!!! good good!! guaigaui listen to mummy.. today going discharge le... going visit thm soon:D

been very busy to prepare for this wed de things.. i make my time slot nice nice liao hope everything will just go wat i wanted it to be:D tired lor think and stresss wat to do on wed.. nvr been so good to a gal before.. :D nvr been so sweet to a gal before:D

firstly..

go print photos thn
later go IMM. book comfirm de thing..
go back home chk de photo done
get de photo de thing back to home..
thn bring everything wif me thn
book a cab to baby hse:D

hope everything will just go smoothly:D and nicely.. and how i wanted:D.. baby.. u can just go study.. until 3 thn go home just wait for me be there:D cracked my head to to after a heavy headache:( drink wif bros ytd.. to celerate i going to NS. till now i cant sleep. now keep thinkin and planning abt tmr abt me and baby:Dbaby.. everything de ans u going give me depends on tmr.. i last and dunno wat stupid cute way.. hope u say YES!! accept me back:) waited for 3months changes for 3 months thing happen in de 3 months. hope baby after de last thing i do. u will say YES u accept ME back:D


photos and thing abt wed thing will update later everything end:D let wish CLOWN good luck in askin jocelyn to come back:D GOOD LUCK CLOWN!

k.. this is myself wif my specs and wif specs.. haha.. had a meet up wif aisha syg few days back.. hhaa she still de same cute as before... now going out.. goig take my pay:).. woooohoooo!! gonna give jocelyn a surprise...:D

hello readers:) hahah.. sorry for not updating.. was bored.. dunno wat to update.. just wake up not long ago:)

going get my new specs today:) haha will be back again wif pics and post:)

cya later:)... takecare

bye:)

nth to to so just wanna find out who de person name RANDOM.. but found out.. haha.. my mei and my gan nuer same ip add?? isit at lan shop ar??

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lol.. so who is random?? ahha.. nth to do.. so just chking.. haha bored!!

guess finally everything have ended le.. i knew u will not keep me back.. hais.. below here.. is one of my ex sented to me and said it to me and make me think alot..

因為愛你, 所以放手還你自由.

因為愛你, 所以不再讓你困擾.

因為愛你, 所以寧願自己難過.

因為愛你, 所以我逼自己離開.

如果我還一直深愛著你, 你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你, 你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了, 你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了, 你才感覺的到我對你的好?

maybe is true ba.. whn i realli leave thn u will feel how much i love u and care for u.. now i nth but just a friend to u.. i tried to hold u.. but u just keep pushin me away.. whn u needa me thn u call or find me.. but whn u dun need u just throw me aside.. and can 1 whole day dun even msg me.. let just leave everything as a nice memories between us ba jocelyn.. let de big pooh pei u de duckie pei u which i given u.. let those 2 thing and all de things i done be a memories between us ba.. i know u will still dun feel anything even if i leave.. cos wat u need is just tat stupid internet guy who u accept as a bf over me. i swear and fucking swear. dun let me know who is he realli.. i swear i will not give him a good day.. if he think he can win me in a fight. i give him a fight.. he take a knife i take a knife.. not he die is i die..

no matter how much i do.. u also will just treat it as a friend who treat u good.. sorry i not.. i treat u good.. care for u.. cos i love u.. i love u thn anyone does.. no matter how much i do.. u just will think of de bad.. not de good..爱太痛 ! ): 而我已经分不清 你是友情 还是错过的爱情 ! ): 为什么我做什么, 你总是看不到 ! ): 爱一个人有这么难吗 ? like this sentance says.. 为什么我做什么, 你总是看不到.. hais... let just put a stop here ba.. if wed u still dun wan meet.. thn forget it ba.. i know i mean nth to u also.. hais..0

baby still rmb u sent me this msg before? u say.. "boy, the world revolves, cause u exist, i can give you th world, but pls give me clown. baby dunt wish tosee you cry again, dunt wisht to hurt you no more, dunt wanna see you acting lik a spoiltbrat, just wanna you to stand strong, you guys walked me to th middle, now is like crucial, but abby thanks for everything,hope for the best(: but i wanna say iloveyou, i really do."

is everything still exist?? u still mean wat u say?? i dun think so le am i rite?? haish...

hi readers.. all these are de past few days photos... :).. and my tattoo touch up:)... haha


k tat all later going hospital... back thn updatte:)

hello readers.... for infor to those ppl who been askin abt my NS thing.. i will post it rite now:)


13july 2009 (mon) at 10.30am to BMT center school 2

address: BMT centre school 2

pulau tekong besar singapore 508450


transport will be provied from pasir ris inter to de SAF ferry terminal from 9.30 to 9.45 am..

k.. all de detail ar here le.. so ppl stop askin me:).. haha
there will be ppl followin me go..

1. my father
2. my mother
3. my sis iikyn
4. my syg aisha(not comfirm)
i left 1 more slot.. cos 5 pppl can follow me... but somehow someone cant follow... u should know i refering to who...

k.. i left 12 days to enjoy.. sian.. dunno wat to bring, wat time wake up on de day.. but meeting sis at gombak at 7.30.. wah.. like 1st day of sec skul.. like some idiot.. dunno wat to do.. like some blur sotong.. haha.. i just go make my spec.. going cut my hair on 12 of july.. haha..

k le... anything to help me abt on de day.. just tagg my blog.. thx:)

Hi. I'm blogging on behalf of my Lao Gong. Alright since he ask me to blog about him, here I am. First of all, I'm Aisha. Yes, I'm the girl whom everyone's been talking about. Why am I with him? Who am I to him? Why is there a 'SYGKU' (or better known as 'dear' in english) just beside her name? I'm not gonna elaborate much about what is us and stuffs like that. We're friends, that's all :) Our conscience is clear, too. And also the reason why I'm here is because I want to blog about him (and not us) and he permit me to. Hehe.

Firstly, Clown (why do you even call yourself clown ehk? *laughs*), thank you for everything. You appeared in my life at the right time, when I'm in the verge of breaking down and no ones' there. You were there spiritually telling me to be strong and to stay strong. Thank you. You've been sucha great 'husband' towards me though you can be sucha bitch at times taking pictures with other girls but not me (!!!) Haha don't worry, I'm not angry though. Not only as a 'husband', you were sucha great friend too. You gave me advices and told me shits. You cared for me like noone ever does. And not forgetting, you keep reminding me to call you when I'm home which initially I didn't because I was simply too lazy. Ha ha.

To you, better take triple care of yourself when you're serving the country. Don't be sucha naughty boy. You're coming eighteen this year so I assume you should be wiser by now. Stop playing too many games, it's bad for health. I expect you to be looking fit when you book out, in future :) Don't flirt horr! I'll make sure I get to see you before school's reopen. I love you to every bits <3

xoxo, love